I love my job, but I won't be jabbed
The anonymous account of a care worker.
This is a guest post from an anonymous CQC care worker.
I work with adults with learning disabilities. I love my job, but I won't be jabbed.
There’s a misapprehension that it’s only people who work in care homes for the elderly who are affected, but anyone registered with the Care Quality Commission has to be vaccinated.
I hadn’t had a day off for five years when I got Covid in March last year. I was very poorly. I haven’t had flu before, but I think it must be like that.
I’ve had two antibodies tests, and they are still strong 19 months later. Why do I need the vaccine? My body is doing what it should be doing.
When the news hit, I wasn't alone in not wanting the jab. Disciplinary meetings were the order of the day. The company had to demonstrate that they were taking the matter seriously, to offer support and ‘evidence’ to the 'vaccine hesitant’ in the hope that they may be persuaded to participate, and essentially to give us our marching orders.
I made the choice to apply for the medical exemption. I wrote what I hoped was a compelling case about how my mental health has suffered. Last year, in the midst of the mayhem of repeated lockdowns and release, I began to have a breakdown. I’ve been so miserable about the prospect of life becoming this endless march of lockdowns, masks, the threat of jabs, that I simply couldn't face it. Knowing that I have already had Covid, I find the pressure of having to be vaccinated an unbearable madness. It has felt like psychological torture.
I had to wait three agonising weeks to hear back from my doctor. The receptionist called and told me I have no medical grounds for exemption. My heart fell into my boots. I applied for the exemption because, ultimately, I love what I do. I love the people we support. I give everything imaginable to my job, because I truly want to make a real and lasting difference to our residents’ lives.
My manager and I have both cried over this in our meetings. The disciplinary process is nearly at an end and, as I don’t have a medical exemption, I will lose my job.
One of my residents has capacity to understand what’s happening but I haven’t told her because she will be gutted. The others will probably not understand what has happened and why, but I won’t be here to care for them.
The other staff where I work have had the vaccine now because they don’t want to lose their job. Two of them had quite nasty adverse effects, which was a bitter pill for them to swallow. One had quite a serious effect and it was reported using the Yellow Card scheme. Another couldn’t get her head off the pillow for three days, she felt really unwell and had a migraine. But none of them wanted the jab, they all felt forced.
In our industry about 10% of staff are declining the vaccine. The care industry is decimated. It is hard to recruit and retain staff, and now it will be even more short-staffed. This is going to affect the care that we deliver. This is not putting the people first. I feel furious about it. Honestly, I feel a red mist when I think about it. The most vulnerable people in society, the ones we are supposed to be protecting, the ones we locked down for, are going to suffer. It will be even harder to help them lead full and meaningful lives as a result.
Even though I have had Covid, I don’t think anyone should be forced to have the vaccine. I think it is about punishing people who are making a choice, because it’s not a sensible public health decision. We have kept everyone safe in our care home.
Right now I feel completely politically homeless. Politicians seem power-crazed now. I have no faith in any of them. The opposition have no backbone and no alternatives.
The government has no concern for me as a human. I feel like I am being treated like a dirty peasant. The politicians have no time for people like me.
I’m terrified of losing my job, but I’m terrified about what is happening in the world. I look at Austria and Germany and worry that could come here. It’s wrong to force people. We have to have freedom to decide what to do with our bodies.
I’ll never be vaccinated now. I don’t need it, but my resolve has increased because of the government trying to force me. I know I am on the right side of history, without a doubt.
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